I Survived Three Years Without Joy. This Is What Anhedonia Really Feels Like.
I have been meaning to write a separate blog post about benzodiazepine post-acute withdrawal syndrome….
Every Time Someone I Love Dies, I Find a Reason to Blame Myself
One of my older rats, Vivi, has died recently. I went to give her her…
For Whom the Cherry Trees Bloom
I remember vividly that in the depths of my addiction, my father was accompanying me…
Ketamine-Assisted Therapy With AuDHD: I Expected Hallucinations. Instead, This Happened
This Monday, I had my first ketamine-assisted therapy session. I was so scared and didn’t…
What If the Person You Feel Like Isn’t the Person You Can Be Anymore?
I have been having the same recurring dream for a long time. I’m at the…
I Learned to Sit Still, And Somewhere Along the Way, I Lost Myself
We’re taught to sit still, stay quiet, and behave. But what happens to the part…
What Happens When Mental Health Treatment Isn’t Built for Neurodivergent Brains?
My mental health has taken a sharp dip downwards in the last month or so….
I Loved Her Deeply—So Why Don’t I Feel the Pain?
After the passing of my beloved rattie Rosie, I have been surprised to feel… Nothing. …
Trying Luminette Glasses for ADHD & Winter Blues: My Review
I’ve been experimenting with different ways to support my energy, focus, and mood, because let’s be real, living with an AuDHD brain can sometimes feel like riding a rollercoaster that forgot how brakes work. One tool I’ve been using for a while is light therapy, and I’ve had the Luminette light therapy glasses for some time now. Here’s my honest Luminette review.
Luminette glasses are basically wearable light therapy devices. Instead of sitting in front of a big, blinding lamp every morning, you just pop these glasses on and go about your usual routine. They shine a soft, blue-enriched white light into your eyes from above, mimicking natural daylight.
The idea is to help regulate your circadian rhythm (a.k.a. your internal clock) and boost serotonin, which can improve energy, mood, and sleep. They’re often recommended for seasonal affective disorder (SAD), jet lag, or just general sluggishness.
Why I Stopped Pretending to Be “Strong”
Today I’m thinking about weakness and strength.
“I envy you that you can afford to be weak,” a friend told me years ago. It made me think. Probably mostly because of the paradox. If being weak is something enviable, why do people attach a negative meaning to it?
I don’t consider myself weak. I used not to mind people attributing this quality to me because I don’t see myself that way. I’m not weak. I’m open about my feelings. And that’s not very common in today’s society, so much so that people can even find it unpleasant.
I think that calling people “strong” or”weak” is nonsense. I don’t think there’s such a thing as “weak” – it’s the same as trying to define the concept of “normal”. People are more complex than the artificial labels of “strength” and “weakness”.